Post by Zeezrom
I fear the prophet Alma and Amulek are murdered. Because I am in part responsible, God in Heaven will soon extract from me my last breath in keeping His word that the wicked will be destroyed.
Amulek knew my very thoughts. He knew my pride, and might I say my pride was justified. Of the many judges and lawyers in Ammonihah, I was the most expert. Nobody excelled in the law above me. Yet, when my use of words failed to achieve my ends, money always would.
Six Onties! What a fool I was. Amulek was not an associate of mine, yet in his affluence, he was well known among the nobility of the city. I thought him a fool to support Alma, a man who we considered a false prophet and who we had rejected once before. I cherished the thought of humiliating Amulek, even destroying him as I had many times before to others who challenged our laws. Yet now, I feel condemned of the many times I perverted and twisted the law for my gain.
Six Onties was foolish. Offer a wealthy man money? What else? He was a man of no small reputation, I couldn’t offer him glory; money was the easiest way to catch him. When he challenged my promise to pay him for his denial of the Christ, he knew the deceit in my heart. I was filled with fear, a fear I’d never before felt. My next move would catch him however, I thought. But he parlayed my move with what I now know was the truth about God.
My next effort should have been an easy one. Among our people an easy point of confusion centered on the nature of God. Some believe God is a spirit and would come to earth and take upon him a body. Others say He is a spirit and the prophecy that a Son of God would come to earth at some future time was a lie. Others say there are three Gods. Using these confusing beliefs, I’ve often succeeded in twisting beliefs and confounding the words of even earnest people.
One God, the very Eternal Father?
I feel my soul is lost.
